I am devoting this blog to "Excuses".
The last few weeks have been an obstacle filled with excuses from myself denying the fact that the ironing basket with pieces dating back 6mths will magically become crease less on its own, or that the dishes will grow legs and walk into the dishwasher... hold that thought I don't have a dishwasher :) or the unfolded laundry will find its way home into the wardrobe. I could go on all day but as much as I wish these things will tick itself off my to do list, I really just need to re-focus and prioritise.
Lately I have been bothered by excuses starting each morning and night between Evalyn and me, ending with a verbal match. Every day is filled with threats in hope to get this 6 year old out of bed, dressed, breakky down and out of door by 7.30am.
Just earlier this week I was so frustrated I yelled at her and went off only to feel absolutely mortified when she responsed "you should treat people the way you would like to be treated mum" and she stormed off with a a flowing river of tears down her face. I followed her and sat down next to her on the bed but couldn't find any words to say to undo what had just happened or to console her. So I just held her tight.
After a few minutes when I was no longer mute I explained to Evalyn mummy doesn't like to be late to work as this means I have more work to do and it will take away time for "mummy & Evalyn", she nodded and understood.
It is funny how as adults we hold a grudge and expect our kids to understand concepts that we don't always grasp fully ourselves. I am committed to trying to refrain from these unnecessary outburst. I took some time to clean up these "EXCUSES" by doing some housework, wash and fold the laundry (minus the ironing still hehe), clear all the dishes and even did a backyard blitz. I actually enjoyed the freshness it gave the house.
I also threw in a trip to Fred's Market and got lunch and dinner down pat for the family. I spent the rest o the afternoon at the park playing "spies" in fortress.
Today I am ENOUGH. I have ENOUGH. ENOUGH is all I need. ENOUGH is all I have. Family is ENOUGH.
